Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Paperwork and other ramblings

Happy Halloween! Can I first start off by rambling a bit? Ok thanks, don't mind if I do... LOL! From time to time I go through phases where I dislike our house, tonight is one of them. I'm whining, but...I wanna live on a street that is BUSY with trick-or-treaters! We had more visitors this year than in the recent years (I think we have 18), but not near as many as I wish we had. Yes, I realize buying a bunch of candy for a boat load of trick-or-treaters would be expensive...but I don't care...I love to see all the little kids dressed up, love to see their faces as they get candy, I would love to be able to where a costume myself when answering the door....  Our street stinks!! We're on the end of a street that is not very well lit...and all the houses around us were NOT participating in the festivities...party poopers! What's not to like about kids? Kids all dressed up in cute costumes, totally excited and having fun?! Why wouldn't any sane person WANT trick-or-treaters?! Unless you don't like kids...???  Weirdos!!!

Anyway, enough of that nonsense!

So...adoption news? Not much...  But we did FINALLY turn all of our paperwork in! We haven't heard anything as a result of that yet...now I'm starting to worry about whether they received the paperwork or not...I'll give it a day or two, then I'll send off an email to be sure. Although our adoption case worker is retiring soon...maybe at the end of this week? I don't know for sure the date of her retirement because my crazy husband threw the letter away! Gggrrrr!!! So, hopefully I can figure out who to contact....

Well, that is all. Rambling, crazy, stupid post!

~Kendra

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

It's October already?! What?!

Yeah, so -- I've been MIA for a few months... Back in June (seems so long ago!), I was still in the mad dash trying to get things done and preparing for the home study. Then things got hectic and somehow my "to do" list kept getting pushed back, back, back...I admit, I kind of went into panic mode about it. However, my dear friend, Sarah, reminded me that it was okay to take a little break if I was feeling overwhelmed. I don't remember exactly what she said, but something just "clicked", and I decided to go ahead and let it set on the back burner for awhile. Not that I wasn't thinking about adoption the past few months, because that couldn't be further from the truth, but we've been busy and I think letting go of the stress and worry about the things we still needed to accomplish was a good thing. We're ready to go again...because we've taken enough time (and it also helps that we got a letter from our case worker saying that we'd passed our deadline on a paper we signed (oops!) and we needed to let her know if we were dropping out of the program or moving forward).

So, I've recently been in touch with our case worker, we'll be turning in the remaining pieces of our the huge amount of paperwork very soon (end of this week or beginning of next is my goal!), and then very quickly getting the home study scheduled!

Several weeks ago we picked out the paint color for the nursery (Valspar Polished Silver #4008-1B) and the room is now painted! Although I have decided that I'm going to paint the chevron pattern on one wall very soon. And, just this weekend, Rob put together the crib (so cool!!!).

Pictures, I've got a few...although they are nothing spectacular, actually rather crappy! The picture of the crib is awful, because it's just sitting in the middle of the room waiting for us to move some junk out of the way, but I'll share the pictures now anyway...because it's still exciting (or I think so anyway!). Ha ha!!

 



Friday, June 1, 2012

CRIB & BEDDING

Wow, what a whirlwind week this has been - so busy!  Here is a quick update for everyone...

Mom and I picked up the crib & mattress after work on Tuesday night.  I couldn't resist, and opened the box on Wednesday night to see how everything looked (and make sure there was no damage) - and now I can't wait to be able to put it all together!

And tonight mom and I looked over the sewing patterns she had for crib bedding and made a final decision on the style and patterns/colors of fabric.  We decided on the chevron pattern in gray & white for the main pattern, it will be on the crib skirt, one side of the quilt, and the rocking chair seat & back pads.  We then went with gray and white stripe for the window valance.  Dark gray/black for 3-4" of bottom on the crib skirt.  And yellow for the crib sheet(s) and the reverse side of the quilt.  So, after we figured out the patterns/colors and amounts of fabric, I came straight home and placed the order!!  From what the Carousel Bedding website says, I should expect to receive the shipment next week!  Woot!!

Monday, May 28, 2012

MOVING FORWARD? OR STANDING STILL?

Lately I've felt like we slowed down...a little bit is fine, but I've been feeling like we've slowed down too much. Ack!  I don't want to be like that!  So, right here, right now I'm going over what we've accomplished so far, which includes things that directly link to the adoption as well as things that indirectly link to it.

What we have ACCOMPLISHED:
  1. Orientation classes
  2. Home Study classes
  3. Turned in MOST of our paperwork
  4. Profile books - created, ordered and in our hot little hands
  5. Finger printing
  6. Background checks
  7. Prepare & Enrich online marriage assessment
  8. Not necessary, but still important (and fun) purchased the crib & mattress - which is in and waiting to be picked up at the store!
  9. Organizing/cleaning (still some to go)
  10. Porch power washed and stained (looks fab!)
  11. Nursery design has been decided (gray, white & yellow with black furniture --- chevron pattern is the main look).  I will be ordering the fabric for our homemade by grandma (my mom) bedding THIS week before my coupon expires! Yay!

What we need TO DO:
  1. Minimal paperwork - 3 pages that need to be done as a couple, 4 pages that are for Rob to complete, 1 page that needs to be signed & notarized (which we'll have our sister-in-law notarize)
  2. Physicals for both of us
  3. Profile video
  4. Home study
This weekend we've done a little more organizing/cleaning and I finished up any paperwork that I was able to do on my own.

As I mentioned above, we ordered our crib & mattress a couple weeks ago and I received notice that it is in and ready to be picked up! We will be doing that this week.  We'll also be setting up appointments for physicals (which I'm dreading).

(sigh) Ok, I guess we're not doing soooo bad after all.....


Friday, May 11, 2012

CRIB

Today, we ordered the crib - well my mom ordered the crib anyway!  (Thank you, mom!)  Such a weird feeling!  It will be in either end of next week or beginning of the following.  And very soon we're going to start tearing into the spare bedroom that will eventually become the nursery.  With the crib on it's way, we can no longer put off preparing the room!  So exciting!

Here it is, we got the crib & mattress combo set.  The next purchase will be the fabric for the crib bedding for my mom to make the quilt, sheets, and skirt - we're not planning to use a crib bumper.


Wednesday, May 9, 2012

ADOPTION SUPPORT GROUP - MTG. 1

Monday night I attended an adoption support group meeting.  I wasn't entirely sure about going, especially since Rob wasn't going to be able to attend since he works 2nd shift right now.  But Sarah and I decided to attend together, so that made it all better! (you hear that Sarah?!)

The meeting was fairly interesting.  The guest speakers were a couple who recently adopted (baby is 3 months old).  They told about their adoption story, which took about 2 1/2 years and one failed adoption before they finally had a successful adoption.  They told about the ups and downs of the waiting game and answered many questions.  I'm glad I went and I look forward to more meetings, if the topics are all just as interesting.

Friday, May 4, 2012

CONTEST UPDATE

Well the crib bedding contest ended on Wednesday night.  Then bright and early on Thursday morning I received an email from the folks at Carousel Bedding saying that I did NOT win. Boo, hiss!!  So it's back to the drawing board, sort of.

For the losers, that's me, we got a discount code for $10 off of a future purchase (that must be used by the beginning of June!) and we're guaranteed free shipping.  I WILL be taking advantage of the discount, but not to order custom made bedding.  It's too expensive from them.  Or maybe I'm just cheap?  They do have really nice stuff, and you are paying for someone to custom make what you design - but my own mother is very talented in the sewing arena, so why not utilize her skills to make something that will be even more fabulous because it will be made with love by GRANDMA?!

You may remember that I ordered fabric swatches a couple weeks ago, and the fabric seems to be of great quality and is a very reasonable price.  So, we'll use the discount codes to purchase the fabric that we need and we'll have our custom made bedding and we'll be proud!!  And I will post updates along the way...

Saturday, April 28, 2012

SHRINKING THE TO-DO LIST & OTHER FUN STUFF

Rob and I went together to get our fingerprinting/background checks done. It sure feels good to cross one more thing off the to-do list!

I've also done some additional cleaning and organizing, so the household to-do list is shrinking too, just not quite as quickly as I'd hoped. But I'm feeling totally good about the progress we are making. I've set a personal deadline as to when I'd like to have all this hoopla accomplished, and it's getting closer every day, but I'm confident we won't have any problems.

Part of the prep has been searching for ideas on the nursery. As I posted on here recently, I had designed some virtual bedding ensembles that we're really considering. Well, I entered one of those designs in Carousel Designs "Design Your Dream Baby Bedding" contest and I was notified earlier this week that I was selected in the top 10 designs! I have a chance to win a $500 gift card from Carousel Designs! That would be so awesome! So please go to the contest page and vote for my design! You can vote once per day until May 2nd!

Here is the direct link to my entry!  Yellow & Gray Love by Kendra

Thanks!!
Kendra

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

PROFILE BOOK

Our profile books arrived in the mail today and I must say that I am very pleased with my creation!  I had my doubts, my moment of panic, just before hitting the "submit" button when it was time to order.  I wondered if I did it "right", if it looked okay, if I said the right things.  But then I thought for a minute and realized that there isn't a "right" or "wrong" way to do this - it's a short story about us, a window into our lives!


Tuesday, April 24, 2012

BEDDING SAMPLES

Something fun arrived in the mail today! The bedding fabric samples I ordered!  I put them on my small bulletin board, along with my "To-Do List".  More things will be added to the board as time goes on, most likely.


Wednesday, April 18, 2012

PROGRESS...I'm making progress!!!

So, I bit the bullet and just (5 minutes ago) ordered our profile books from Shutterfly!  I waited, and waited, and waited (ha!) until they had another 50% off coupon...and finally, last week I got one.  So, I made a couple small edits to the book I'd already created/saved, adding a new photo of me and Rob from this past weekend as the new cover photo and one of the newborn photos I did of my newest niece (born on Valentine's Day) to the family photo section.  And then I checked and double checked for spelling/grammar errors (oh will I be mad if I missed something!!!), called my mom for a pep talk "am I really ready to order these 5 books?!" - then I hit the "submit" button and the order is placed!!!

Total savings with the 50% off coupon plus a free shipping coupon = $119.47.  Wowzers!!!

It sure feels good to have one seemingly huge thing off my plate.  Now I'll be biting my nails until the books arrive!!!

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

KEEP ROLLING ON...

Not trying to get ahead of myself, but not wanting to drag my feet too much.  I know we have quite a bit still left to do before we're considered "active" in the adoption world, and a wait that could span a couple years,  but we have to get things ready...you can't put off planning forever!  A girl needs to do a little shopping, right?!

So, I'm still pinning baby ideas to my "Baby" board on Pinterest and entering giveaways trying to win baby gear.  So tonight, while entering a Pottery Barn Kids giveaway on Project Nursery, I came across a website that sells crib bedding (among other things) where you can browse/buy already put together designs or use their nifty nursery designer to create a virtual picture of custom bedding you create.  The site is Carousel Designs and I can't even tell you how long I stayed on that site!

I'm still really leaning towards the gray/yellow/white color scheme, with black furniture thrown in the mix.  But, recently (on Project Nursery) I found another nursery design that still involves gray, but instead of yellows and whites, it had bright aqua blue, orange, and green with the chevron pattern that I so love.  It was adorable, and different.  But tonight while playing around on Carousel Designs, I created and saved several gray, yellow and white bedding options.  So, I bit the bullet and ordered fabric swatches, seven to be exact.  At only $.50 a swatch, how could you go wrong?!

Here are a couple of the designs I created:






















Just a little fun to throw in the mix....wouldn't want this blog to get boring now, would we?! ;)

Saturday, March 17, 2012

S.L.O.W.....

Well it's been a couple weeks since my last post.  Yes, it's been quiet here on the blog, but not at home.  I've been working on our profile book using Shutterfly, and I think I'm done with it...and I think I'm pretty pleased with the final result!  I've done a little cleaning/organizing too...but have much more to do still.  And, last Saturday I went to the town-wide sale/auction at a the next town over with my brother, niece, and dad where I purchased a cute dresser that I plan to use as a changing table!  So, we can officially say that we've bought our first piece of furniture for the nursery!

Here is the dresser/changing table.  We are buying a black crib, so this dresser will be painted black to match (my dad offered to paint it).  We have the 2 missing drawer knobs, but I think I'm going to replace all of them with glass knobs.














And here is Shelby, my auction buddy.  We had fun that day!!























I've also looked at the rest of the paperwork we need to fill out. A couple times, in fact. And I've not started filling it out - yet.  But I will.  The only reason I haven't done anything with this next round of paperwork yet is because I don't want to get ahead of myself by having too much turned in and a house that is not ready for inspection. Ha ha!  Our future nursery is still our junk room.  I'd post a picture, but I don't want anyone turning us in to the producers of the show "Hoarders"!  LOL!  Honestly, that room has been more of a storage space for us than a guest room.  We've lived in this house for 7.5 years and we've only had someone stay in that room twice. TWICE in 7.5 years!!  So, that room needs to be cleaned out...and since we don't have much storage space in this house, I have a feeling that not only is it going to be cleaned out, but a lot will need to be thrown out.  All that stuff I've been keeping for "this" or "that" or "someday"...oh, never mind....  My someday is coming...but the junk is no longer needed.  My someday has a purpose, which is a FAMILY.  My someday is that room is FINALLY going to be a nursery!!!

Don't get me wrong, that's not the only thing that needs to be done around this house.  The entire house could stand a good, deep cleaning.  It really could.  And there are more things in other rooms of this house that could stand to be thrown away - not just in the "junk" room.  I would post my "to do" list, but I don't want to depress you.  I'm only kidding. Kind of.  I'm actually really looking forward to the cleaning/organizing...because it means we're moving forward!

That's it for this time!!
~K




Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Classes ~ DONE!

Today was day 2 of the Home Study class.....which also marks the end of our classes!  The morning portion of the class was long, difficult and...slightly boring.  We each shared about our journey towards adoption, whether that journey took us through infertility, just a desire to adopt, or maybe another path.  There were some sad stories...but it was interesting to hear how others in our group had reached this point.

We all went to lunch together at Avanti's, which is close by and easy to get in and out of in a timely manner.  Lunch was fun and gave us another chance to get to know everyone.  I felt horrible when we got back to class to find out that the reason one of the couples didn't join us is because they didn't know where Avanti's was and they got separated from the group when we hit a red light!!

After we got back from lunch, we went into more interesting topics.  The birth mom counselor joined us to share information from that perspective and to answer any questions that we had.  After that, we discussed a couple other things and then went on to what I considered the most interesting topic of the day - creating our portfolios (which will be in the form of a book and a video).  We watched 2 videos that were made by adoptive couples and looked through numerous profile books to get ideas.

Since this was our last class, it was our last time with the group of couples that we've been through this journey (to this point) with.  At the end of class, we exchanged contact information with everyone.  And, we're planning to connect via Facebook.  Hopefully that will work out because I'd love to touch base and see how everyone is doing along the way!

Our folder from today's class is thick (the thickest one we've received so far!) and we've got more paperwork to sort through.  We should soon receive more information from our case worker regarding what else needs to be done (and how to go about that), I do know that we'll need to do fingerprinting, physicals, and get our house in shape and ready for the actual home study. I'm hoping that we can get moving on this quickly, as I'd like to get as much done before June as we can since summer is very busy for both us.

I'll keep updating as often as I can, so check back frequently!

~Kendra


Monday, February 27, 2012

What we're thinking bout now...

Rob and I have been working on the "homework" that we received during our first of two home study classes. We each worked on our stacks separately because we each got copies of the same documents to fill out that required thought and lots of writing! I don't know about Rob, but for me, these documents have really made me think! Some of the questions are HARD...such as "What do you believe to be your strengths?", "What do you believe to be your weaknesses?", "Describe your perception of God and how the perception relates to your lifestyle.", "Describe your feelings about organized religion." - and the list goes on, and on!

These are just a few examples...some of it I sit there and had to really think how to put it on paper. But, for the most part, it's really not that bad.

 Tomorrow will be our second home study class. We will get even more paperwork from that class, along with the list of things that we need to do to prepare for the actual home study.

 Every step we take makes it feel more real! And, as Rob likes to say in that joking tone of his, "We're really doing this!" ;)

Friday, February 17, 2012

Home Study Class

Today was our first of two full day "Home Study" classes. I'm exhausted, not necessarily because of today's class, but because of all the chaos (good and bad) that has gone on this week...I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am that it's Friday...the weekend is FINALLY here!

Tuesday (Valentine's Day) was a wonderful day because my niece was born! Happy and healthy, Lily weighed in at 6 lbs. 12 oz. She's a doll! And her big sister, Shelby, is very proud (as are the rest of our family)! This is what my Valentine's Day looked like:

I won't go into all the details about why I'm so happy that this week is just about over, but it involves a set of keys that were lost after they were left somewhere that they shouldn't have been and they included the one and only copy of the door/ignition/remote entry key to my husband's Durango (which ended up costing us over $200 to replace) plus some very hectic days at work made this one heck of a week!  The $200 key replacement and $1500 we paid for this home study class made for a very expensive week!!!  Somebody needs to win the lotto...hello, anyone out there??

So, like I mentioned above, today was our first Home Study class. There were 7 couples, including us, in attendance. We got to know a little more about the other couples during class and when we all went to lunch together. I actually really enjoyed today!

We covered topics such as:  a brief history of adoption, fair fighting skills, communication styles, shared with the group how we met and about our dating/engagement/marriage, we did a personality test and watched a humorous video about the test. I'm sure that I'm missing something, but this is what I can remember right now!

We have another stack of "homework" that they encouraged us to fill out and have ready before our next class, which is scheduled for February 28th.  It's not mandatory that it all be complete by the 28th, but they said it would make things easier for us since we'll be receiving another stack of "homework" at the next class.  If we complete this in little baby steps, it won't be so bad!

Scanning through our folder right now, the homework includes the following:

  • Communication Styles: A Self-Assessment Exercise 
  • Home Study Worksheet: Family of Origin 
  • Genogram - which gives a brief history of our family genealogy 
  • Religion & Values worksheet
  • Financial Management: The Meaning of Money
  • Portfolio: Tastes & Preferences
  • Adoptive Parents Personality Characteristics
  • Home Study Worksheet: Marriage
  • Worksheet for Wife
  • Worksheet for Husband
  • Supplement to Worksheet: Previous Marriage (which does not apply to us)
  • Household Responsibility Checklist

Still a long way to go in this journey, but each step gets us just a little bit closer!!

Friday, February 3, 2012

Orientation Class 2

We have our adoption application filled out and ready to turn in!  We had to provide the names of 4 people to use as references, and I called 3 or the 4 during the week to make sure it was okay to use them and to let them know that they would receive a letter in the mail and they'll have to respond to the request. And Rob still needs to contact the other person on our list, but we know that one will be not be a problem at all.  

Last night was another orientation class.  This class lasted just over 3 hours.  Since we didn't have time to do it at the last class, we did an "around the room" introduction, then the 2 caseworkers began the slideshow and question/answer session and we had some discussion among the group.  We got a folder of new information to read at home and more paperwork to fill out, watched a video that featured some young birth mom's who discussed their experience and feelings about making an adoption plan for their baby's, and lastly, we decided on dates for our next round of classes. (woo!)

So, our next step is the Home Study classes, which will be daytime classes, February 17th & 28th from 10am-4pm.  In this next step, we will get more involved in the adoption process and begin the groundwork in getting (hopefully) approved and eventually in circulation for adoption of our own little angel.  As I understand it, thanks to my friend Sarah :), we're just at the tip of the iceberg when it comes to paperwork and "homework".  Lots to do still...it will be a long road, but so worth it in the end! 


Sunday, January 29, 2012

Paperwork

Today we started working on some of the paperwork that we were given during our most recent class.

It's overwhelming...although I fully realize that this bit of paperwork is nothing compared to what we will be getting during the home study process.  I guess it feels overwhelming because, well...it just makes things even more real.

Yeah, I know, every little step forward is going to be another wake-up call that this is really happening.  Some day I'll be used to it...nah, who am I kidding?!  I'll never be used to it!!

But by the time we wade through the sea of paperwork, we'll be fully aware of our beliefs, wishes, and desires involving parenthood, as well as our financial situation, home situation, marriage situation...the list goes on, and on.  All good...evaluating life...all good...moving forward...all good. :)


Next class ~ Thursday, February 2nd.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Orientation Class | Family Dynamics of Open Adoption

Tonight was our first "Orientation" Class...which was supposed to be LAST Thursday, but instead Mother Nature interrupted those plans by bringing us the first snow storm of the winter season (gotta love Midwestern winters!).

The class size was larger than I expected, if I remember correctly there were 8 other couples besides us.  Due to last week's class being cancelled, in this week's class we covered topics that are normally covered in week 2 because the guest speakers were already booked for this week.  So, tonight we met an adoptive family that consisted of dad, mom, their 9 yr. old biological son, and their 1 yr. old adopted son...plus the birth mom, who is currently a high school senior.  We found it to be very interesting and informative!

The birth mom spoke about things such as: what brought her to adoption, how difficult it was, how things are going for her now,  what made her choose this family over the other 2 profiles she viewed, among other things.  The adoptive parents spoke about what brought them to adoption after having a biological child, how the open adoption process has worked (and continues to work) for them, how long their wait was before being matched, and many other things.  Plus we were all given a chance to ask questions of both the adoptive parents and the birth mom.  This took up a majority of the class, then after this family left, the caseworkers explained a little more background on this family, discussed a few other topics and then we had a quick discussion on when our "make up" class will be in place of the class time we missed last week.  We were also given more paperwork that needs to be filled out...I know there will be MUCH more paperwork to come!

Overall, I thought tonight's session was great, and I can't wait for the next one!  The caseworkers will be in contact with each of us for confirm the reschedule date for this....so, for right now, we just have to hang tight for a few days before we have more info!


Thursday, January 12, 2012

First snow fall...

So, today was supposed to be our first orientation class. Mother Nature had other plans. After going this far into the winter with no snow, and almost hitting a record on the latest in the season for a snow fall (not just flurries), today of all days we get SNOW.

It's been snowing here since early this morning (6AM) and it's STILL snowing (at 6PM)!!  Needless to say, we got a call around 11AM from our case worker letting us know that they were canceling tonight's class. :(

As much as I love snow days, I'm going to pray that next Thursday there is NO SNOW!!!  I want to get this ball rolling!!!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

The checklist

Let the whirlwind begin!  Our first of two orientation classes begins tomorrow night.  How am I feeling?  Nervous. Excited. Happy. Scared.  A lot of feelings are running through my veins!

We have a checklist of things that we need to bring with us tomorrow night. I've just about got them all ready and in a folder:

  • Copy of marriage certificate
  • First page of most recent US 1040 tax form
  • Proof of pet inoculations
  • Proof of life insurance
  • Photo of the two of us
  • Check for payment of orientation classes

We had to scramble to get a photo of the two of us together.  I'm not one for being in FRONT of the camera, since I'm an aspiring photographer, I'd much rather be TAKING the pictures...so the last decent photo of the two of us together was (gasp) 5 years ago?!   So, mom came over during Rob's dinner break to take a couple quick snapshots.  I just uploaded them to walgreens.com (another taboo thing for this photographer), and Rob will be picking them up tomorrow afternoon!  I know you're curious...so, I won't keep you in suspense any longer....here's the dang the photo! Say cheese!!


Thursday, January 5, 2012

Where do I begin?

I've decided to start a family blog with high hopes of sharing exciting news in the future...the way off future.

As most of you who will read this know, Rob and I have been married for 8 years (together for 10).  My dream has always been to be a mom.  Plain and simple.  That's all I really cared about...not a fabulous career, not a fancy house, not a glamorous lifestyle.  I just wanted to be a mom!!!

Only a few short months after we got married, we began a journey to start a family.  Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined what a long, difficult, and often times painful road that would lead us down.

After almost a full year of trying, I finally consulted with my doctor.  That brought on a battery of tests, taking my temperature every morning to chart my cycles, fertility drugs, and eventually being referred on to a fertility specialist.  After consulting with the specialist, and getting approval from insurance, we started down the wild scary road of IVF.  Many doctor appointments, medications which included the use of many needles (my fears of needles disappeared after giving myself way too many dang shots!), sonograms, sleepless nights, night sweats, CRAZY hormones...and three, yes THREE, rounds of IVF later - we are still battling the scars of unexplained infertility.

After deciding that I no longer wanted to go through the stress of IVF - we decided it was time to quit....

About a year after our last round of IVF, a dear friend put us in touch with a family that had two adorable little girls who's mother was young and had pretty much abandoned them (leaving them in the care of family) and she had agreed to let us adopt them.  As we geared up for the potential of adopting these beauties, we spent a great deal of time getting to know them and their extended family (minus the mother), things were starting to look up for us - or so we thought.  That happiness did not last long...just as we were about to begin the initial paperwork with the attorney and court system, the mom came back in the picture and announced that she had changed her mind.  Many tears and a couple years later, our hearts still ache with the sadness of our empty house.

As we've sat back and pondered our future without the giggles, rumblings, hugs & kisses of children in our home...many conversations (and sometimes squabbles) later, we've decided to once again venture down the road to adoption.  This time through an agency.  This time with, hopefully, a joyous outcome!

With that being said...we've had 2 meetings already with Catholic Charities in Peoria, IL.  We have a wonderful caseworker and we are set to begin the group Orientation Classes next week for their domestic infant adoption program...I don't think I could be more nervous, or excited!  I just hope and pray that things go our way on this journey "To Fill This House"!!!!

With much love,
Kendra